It was Saturday, November 12, 2011. My last full day of work, feeling nervous, I worked the day alone. All day I was thinking, I can't believe I'm doing this. What will tomorrow bring, will I be able to make this happen? As my mind raced 90 to nothing with what seemed to be a million thoughts and questions, I was scared and excited at the same time. This is something I've never done before, the beginning of a journey that would be fulfilled by faith. It has literally been a walk directed by GOD.
Today is the 2 year anniversary since I took that leap of faith and walked away from my full time job. I left behind stress, unhappiness, and the feeling of being stagnant in my current position. I didn't really want to move forward in the job, because I knew after 5 years I didn't want to make it a career. Before I left, everyday for 3 years I searched daily for a new job, a new adventure, or the possibility to start a new career, but nothing happened. There even came a point in time where I applied for pretty much anything, I felt desperate. I WANTED OUT! Over qualified for some, under qualified for others, and a few that seemed to be that perfect match! AAAAH!!! This is the one, interview went well, I'm all smiles!!! Right? Wrong! Even that one fell through. Bummed, sad, irritated, unhappy, miserable, and frustrated every negative word you can think of described how I felt doing something I no longer wanted to do. How does a girl, who is young, smart, educated, talented, and experienced end up in this place? I felt as if I was "selling out", selling out to a job just because I knew I would be paid every two weeks and I "needed" the money, selling out, because having a job was what I'm supposed to do, selling out, because I couldn't find anything to replace what I was currently doing. I woke up every morning before work dreading to walk through those doors. UUhhhggg, this again, what's the purpose? Why am I here?
I found the answer in Oct. 2011 on merriam-webster.com. A few weeks before this walk of faith happened. I took a three day took trip to Atlanta with my BFF Brandy for the WPPI-U photography conference. The conference consisted of three full days of workshops, learning, and mentoring several successful photographers. I left the workshop every evening ecstatic! Ecstatic about this new found love of being a photographer. As I walked back to our hotel on the streets of downtown Atlanta alone, feeling happy, motivated, ready to take being a photographer to another level, I didn't realize the extent of what this journey would be. All I knew is I was ready!
On that evening, in the hotel room as I read over my notes from the workshop that day, while chatting with Brandy about life, freedom, and fancy, I began doing a little research. I was working on perfecting my new Boudoir website for Fancy. You know, in business, marketing is very important, you want your work to be appealing to the potential client in every area, visually, even down to every "i" dotted and "t" crossed when someone is reading about your services. I was looking into wording for my boudoir website that would catch the clients attention! Looking for every word that would describe a boudoir experience with me, every single word that would describe Fancy! As I began my search I started with the thesaurus on merriam-webster.com. Typed in the word "Fancy" and a list of words appeared on the list. The word that stuck out to me the most was "Whim". My first thought, how does "fancy" and "whim" relate?
Click! The light bulb turned on!!!! Brandy, Brandy, Brandy! This is it! I must quit my job!!! "What?" with excitement said Brandy! Yes, come quick, read this!!!
As a furthered my researched, digging deeper to understand the meaning of the simplest word, God spoke to me using the definition of whim, how it relates to fancy, and what I needed to do in order to make it happen. Just quit.
Why are we afraid to quit? Because we have in our minds that "quitting" is a matter of giving up or when you quit there is no longer that safety net.
But I'm here to testify, when you follow the direction of God, it isn't a matter of giving up, or a matter of letting go of your safety, but its the matter of learning how to walk a mile by faith.
Faith as I know it is "the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." Hebrews 11:1
Fancy according to one of the many definitions on m-w.com b : to believe without being certain
Faith = Fancy! They have the same meaning.
This simplest idea for a photo session has turned to into the most amazing walk by Faith that in turn has a purpose and a mission, to empower and inspire women, to seek happiness, joy, peace, contentment, self assurance, and freedom, by Faith.
Now, many of you know my story and have followed me from the beginning on this journey of my life as a full time photographer. In the past 24 months I have been a full-time photographer and business owner. What I used to do for someone else, I now do for myself. What exactly is that? Manage and Supervise myself and the operations of my business. I must say, it is not as easy as it seems, but it's rewarding and worth every single minute.
24 Months ago, I walked away from frustration and misery to follow the vision God gave me. In turn, I walked into joy, happiness, and Fancy!!!!!